I drink my tea with the spoon still in the cup.

 

I’m going to sleep because in my dreams, my life is a romantic movie and you pull up in your stupid car in the middle of the night and there’s a dramatic montage of us talking everything out and making everything better. I’m going to sleep because my dreams are better than my reality.

I have become a better person because of you.
My relationship with God has strengthened because of your relationship with God.
I have cried everyday for the past 4 days because of you.
I have learned to be more secure in who I am because of you.
I have seen what I want in a man because of you.
I’m not upset because of you.
I’m upset because I know that this is all in the plan that God has for me and I can’t see the bigger picture yet.
I feel like I just lost a friend.
I hope you know this isn’t easy for me.
I hope you know that I want to be with you and respect you even more for your decision.
You’re not the bad guy, I don’t hate you, I’m not angry.
You’re a great guy, I care about you, and I’m happy for your strength.
Anyone would be lucky to have you and I regret that the lucky girl will not be me.